Heyya, long tym since i posted. today, im in 2 moods. it started off wif fcked up, then very happy. then fcked up again.

fcked up 1:
this morning, my best fren was planning to leave with the bus without me. i tried to apologise for being late those few days before, she ignored me. uhh, long story, i dun feel ky tokin bout it. kay, this is the first.

damn happy:
a fren added me on msn and its been a long long time since i toked to him. really really happy to tok to him again. i dun wish to elaborate.

super fcked up:
called my other once best fren to ask her for advice and tell her my problems, but she couldnt talk. i had to suffer alone for awhile. then ltr i signed into msn, she was there. i toked to her. i told her how i felt and everything. told her i didnt noe wat i did wrong. seriously though, i didnt use any vulgaritied then. i was jus honest w her about how i felt and asked for her forgiveness. guess wat? she decided to quarrel instead. ok, so she said stuff lyk "wdv lahhs. i'm in a new class, new envioronment. obviously i have new friends right. " more insulting things that came up but, i dun wana copy it all down. so i decided to do it her way, if its quarreling she wanted. i told her i wasnt desperate and i wasnt gona plead w her anymre. i was hurt at the same tym fcking pissed lah, dun expect me to remain calm rite? soo... jus cry awhile lah, den ok le. anyway, lyk my jie n my dad always stress: y nid dis kinda ppl in my life? they dont deserve it. so yeah, i ended things w grace, she'd probably tell my best fren about today and they most likely won't be talking to me anymore soo... i take this as the end of our frenship and.. wow, i already made an enemy. how cool is that. new year in new sku, new life and new frens, and 2 new enemies. nice huh? so well... its up to dem lah. dey wan forgive me, i think if i get rid of the way im feeling now, i won't take them bak. its sad since i enjoyed the times spent with this gal. since p3. but oh well, i gta admit, i've been tru dis kinda quarrel w her a lot of tyms and it always strts when she insists on doin it de hard way. i'm gona be strong and set my mind straight to wat i want this year, im not gona b that idiot and sympathetic gal i used to be. this is gona b the last tym im gona quarrel w her. its either and end, or a new beginning wif no more problems. thats it, i kinda feel btr now typing this all out. at the same tym i kinda feel happy for pissing her off. afterall, she had nvr been much of a fren to me so... wth, y do i always make the wrong kind of frens =.= ok lah, i heck le. now i got my new good frens in class. i duno if this is supposed to be but, i feel lyk i've known them my whole life... and i feel happy about it(: signing out.

flew into my heart at 4:27 AM